Lone Wolf Angel Blog

It's just too late...She doesn't need you anymore and she no longer misses you. And it all because you never made her a priority. You took for granted that she would always be there, waiting for you to serve her the scraps of your time. It's funny, because as she waited for you to realized what she had done...She finally realized that she didn't need what you were offering. The older I get the more I realized the importance of walking away from people and situations which threaten my peace of mind, self-respect, values and self worth. Be careful with her You have to be careful with her. She has been picking up the pieces of her heart for some time. With great tenderness, love, and care she places them back together -- all by herself. If you want her in your life, you must understand the cracks in her heart. She returned from a warzone -- Now all she need is a safe haven What if they get mad at me? If people get mad at you for having boundaries, it means they've bene...

      I am unsure where this blog will go or how things are gonna sound and I do apologize for this. But I was watching The Sandman on Netflix. Amazing show which i do suggest watching if you guys ever get the chance to watch it. But yeah this not about the tv show. I promise you it not about that.     Alright so what I want to write about this blog is how like do you always feel alone and how you have no mental escape at all? You feel trap inside your own skin and how any time you wake up and you do the same course of action over and over again? It just endless cycle and you feel like your not getting any where and at a job that just ain't make you happy and the dream job you want is so far away?     How I truly feel because I feel like I am always living a dream or just walking alone in a world full of couples and full of just people who don't understand me that well unless I try to explain. But even then though there so many rumors spread about your...

     Have you ever felt like you are not yourself anymore and you feel like you just feel alone and trapped inside your won skin but you know that someone out there wants to save you? but you don't know how to save yourself or how to have them help you?     I have been feeling this way for a while now. Ever since I started a job where I was miserable, coming home in cuts, crying, barley eating or sleeping, and getting brutally sick. I couldn't take it and left finally today but the damage. I think it gonna linger because it's just one of those things you can't break from. I wasn't there for a long period of time. But it left a nasty scar on my heart, mental state.     I nearly got mauled in the face by a dog, nearly bitten in the arm for just trying grab a dog to yank it back to it kennel, i was always afraid for my life. I hated it because I have no idea who I became. I ended up shut down pretty badly because it was easier to get through the work days...

      There is four types of abuse. Mental, Psychical, Rape, Emotional. Those four are what can drive a person to pure rage, sorrow, depression, suicide, body harming. It sucks when you have dealt with all four and you can't control it. It a topic that gets pushed away a lot because no one wants to talk about it. but for me? I have been through all four types of abuse in different area of my life.     Lets first start with mental abuse. the mental abuse can be the rough one and struggle with the most because it does mess with your self esteem later on in life or just in time of your life. I was always bulled at school and times online as well. been told to kill myself, I am fat bitch, I am worthless and many more. But I use to want to go kill myself and just end it all because I was so done with it. But after a while I learned something. They can say what they want. believe the lies that was told about me and I learned that best thing to do. Stare at t...

    You ever felt like an outcast? Where you don't fit in anymore? or just feel like you don't want to be around anyone because you know your different? Life as an outcast sucks. We never fit in half the time and we get judge heavily for it. I am an outcast myself. I am gamer, writer, artists, love to work and i love to read. I am tomboy on the outside. Love to ride my bike, rough house with dogs or cats, rough house with males. I never fit in because of all those things. I am different but I accept it. You should as well. Being an outcast not able fit in with popular crew or other little groups. Who cares? Legit be who you wanna be. Don't be afraid to just come out with it. Don't shy away from stuff you know makes you super happy. Game is something that I fucking love. I do game alot because something that I love. I use to get teased for being gamer and all different stuff. But you know what? Who cares!? Being outcasts is best thing in the world. Because you set yourse...

      Being a female hard enough when comes to certain shit but when now a days comes to game? it a lot rougher because now there so many people out there who still feel like women shouldn't be gamers. Everything a women should be is in the kitchen, giving the males what they want or deal with the kids or clean house.     When you tell anyone your a female gamer. get same response of a cruel look because times they feel it bad or they start trash talking you because they feel you shouldn't be game at all.     normally I wouldn't get on this topic but think I am going to because I feel like it needs to be said that females have every right to game as everyone else inside this world as welp say a four year old learning to play soccer as big league person! I know stupid reference couldn't think of a better one! In 2021, women accounted for  45 percent  of gamers in the United States, up from 41 percent of U.S. gamers identifying as wom...

      This is a bit personal but I feel like all of you could understand how it is just wanna heal. I am in a relationship with wonderful man who treats me like a queen. He amazing and I love him to death but recently I have been deal with some massive mental illness. Suicidal, Depression, Shutting down. It getting worst then usual lately and I talked to him about want to break up possible.     There this girl who in our life that really fuck up the relationship to and I wish she just leave us alone because I don't like her anymore or trust her anymore. I feel like she trying every which way she can to get him to date her. That just my theory ok? Don't fucking judge me on this shit. But I am being serious though when I say that I am getting to point where I am debate starting a self heal.     Start to see therapist, get my health all in check, lose weight. Just all in all. Feel better about myself then what I have been feeling about myself. I am l...

       We all deal with depression sometimes it good and sometimes it bad. we never know truly do we? only time we know it gets worst is when we think of ending it. because no matter what happens to us. we always know that someone is always trying to stop us.     DO we wanna be stopped? is that what people think? we wanna stop ourselves from ending our lives or just straight up cutting?     The answer is yes and no. we do wanna stop living because times our lives just utter shit and hell that we can't think straight anymore. Times yes we do wanna be stopped by someone who cares for us and loves us because maybe there is hope for us. We do wanna stop cutting because it leaves horrible scars and those scars times never heal or go away. always there.     The bad people are us. ones who lives with depression and always feels like we are the main cause of death. what I googled up. How many people die a year from Depression? well I got this fo...