Lone Wolf Angel Blog

 Alright, I know been ages, but I am writing this because of recent things going on in my life, and I feel like we all need to hear something or help ourselves get through these as well. But with how the world has been and how dark things have become. I want to say that if you feel like you are not worth shit or worth anything and feel alone or hate everything, then don't worry because I genuinely get it. I have been battling with months and years of depression, and I can't take it anymore. I wake up and want to end it because I am tired of feeling like I can't equal up to something others want of me. Being a fucking mother figure, being a good wife, being all this shit that I know I am not that person! I have lied, broken people's hearts and souls, and do so much fucking damage shit to people that I don't care anymore because where has it gotten me!? Nothing but pain and misery! that life of just wanting to have a stable day or an everyday life with no stress and n...

It's just too late...She doesn't need you anymore and she no longer misses you. And it all because you never made her a priority. You took for granted that she would always be there, waiting for you to serve her the scraps of your time. It's funny, because as she waited for you to realized what she had done...She finally realized that she didn't need what you were offering. The older I get the more I realized the importance of walking away from people and situations which threaten my peace of mind, self-respect, values and self worth. Be careful with her You have to be careful with her. She has been picking up the pieces of her heart for some time. With great tenderness, love, and care she places them back together -- all by herself. If you want her in your life, you must understand the cracks in her heart. She returned from a warzone -- Now all she need is a safe haven What if they get mad at me? If people get mad at you for having boundaries, it means they've bene...

      I am unsure where this blog will go or how things are gonna sound and I do apologize for this. But I was watching The Sandman on Netflix. Amazing show which i do suggest watching if you guys ever get the chance to watch it. But yeah this not about the tv show. I promise you it not about that.     Alright so what I want to write about this blog is how like do you always feel alone and how you have no mental escape at all? You feel trap inside your own skin and how any time you wake up and you do the same course of action over and over again? It just endless cycle and you feel like your not getting any where and at a job that just ain't make you happy and the dream job you want is so far away?     How I truly feel because I feel like I am always living a dream or just walking alone in a world full of couples and full of just people who don't understand me that well unless I try to explain. But even then though there so many rumors spread about your...

     Have you ever felt like you are not yourself anymore and you feel like you just feel alone and trapped inside your won skin but you know that someone out there wants to save you? but you don't know how to save yourself or how to have them help you?     I have been feeling this way for a while now. Ever since I started a job where I was miserable, coming home in cuts, crying, barley eating or sleeping, and getting brutally sick. I couldn't take it and left finally today but the damage. I think it gonna linger because it's just one of those things you can't break from. I wasn't there for a long period of time. But it left a nasty scar on my heart, mental state.     I nearly got mauled in the face by a dog, nearly bitten in the arm for just trying grab a dog to yank it back to it kennel, i was always afraid for my life. I hated it because I have no idea who I became. I ended up shut down pretty badly because it was easier to get through the work days...

      There is four types of abuse. Mental, Psychical, Rape, Emotional. Those four are what can drive a person to pure rage, sorrow, depression, suicide, body harming. It sucks when you have dealt with all four and you can't control it. It a topic that gets pushed away a lot because no one wants to talk about it. but for me? I have been through all four types of abuse in different area of my life.     Lets first start with mental abuse. the mental abuse can be the rough one and struggle with the most because it does mess with your self esteem later on in life or just in time of your life. I was always bulled at school and times online as well. been told to kill myself, I am fat bitch, I am worthless and many more. But I use to want to go kill myself and just end it all because I was so done with it. But after a while I learned something. They can say what they want. believe the lies that was told about me and I learned that best thing to do. Stare at t...

    You ever felt like an outcast? Where you don't fit in anymore? or just feel like you don't want to be around anyone because you know your different? Life as an outcast sucks. We never fit in half the time and we get judge heavily for it. I am an outcast myself. I am gamer, writer, artists, love to work and i love to read. I am tomboy on the outside. Love to ride my bike, rough house with dogs or cats, rough house with males. I never fit in because of all those things. I am different but I accept it. You should as well. Being an outcast not able fit in with popular crew or other little groups. Who cares? Legit be who you wanna be. Don't be afraid to just come out with it. Don't shy away from stuff you know makes you super happy. Game is something that I fucking love. I do game alot because something that I love. I use to get teased for being gamer and all different stuff. But you know what? Who cares!? Being outcasts is best thing in the world. Because you set yourse...