Things haunt us in shadows

 Alright, I know been ages, but I am writing this because of recent things going on in my life, and I feel like we all need to hear something or help ourselves get through these as well. But with how the world has been and how dark things have become. I want to say that if you feel like you are not worth shit or worth anything and feel alone or hate everything, then don't worry because I genuinely get it. I have been battling with months and years of depression, and I can't take it anymore. I wake up and want to end it because I am tired of feeling like I can't equal up to something others want of me. Being a fucking mother figure, being a good wife, being all this shit that I know I am not that person! I have lied, broken people's hearts and souls, and do so much fucking damage shit to people that I don't care anymore because where has it gotten me!? Nothing but pain and misery! that life of just wanting to have a stable day or an everyday life with no stress and no worry in the world is never going to happen, and I have learned to accept it because I can't have a normal life. Yes, I know my world isn't bad as some, but I have learned from the last year that I want to be someone different, so that is what I am going to do. I am going to be focusing on my book called Mysterious Soul, and I will also work on saving more money to travel the world, or I will start changing who the fuck I want myself to be. It would help if you did the same. OUR shadows may haunt us. May begin to thrive on what we have, but you know what!? It's time we broke those chains and just fucking finally show the world that we are not its damn puppets and that our year is what we make of it! I will start making more of these blogs if it means helping you guys! I don't care. I am tired of seeing people I know always think I am a strong person when inside, I barely make life meets and times forget to take medicine that I have to take or even communicate with people who I have known for ages. Because I am tired of all the fake, disgraceful horror people call friendships. No one KNOWS our story except for us, and it is about time that we show people who fuck we are, and instead of hiding it, just fucking let it out.

We shouldn't be afraid of what haunts us in the shadows. OUR shadows are OUR shadows. Who cares what is inside of them!? We need to accept or fight them back because no matter what, at the end of the night. We must live with ourselves and tuck ourselves in at night. Never give up what you want, and never let people tell you otherwise, no matter what. YOU are in charge of your story and always find a way to express yourself. I have been trying to do that so much, and I am slowly finding ways to do that and write my book that I will one day share with you folks or something else. But understand this, folks.

We have our demons, the type of horror that we battle each day. We hide it because we are afraid to show everyone who we are genuinely ok, and yeah, it's OK to say "I'm not okay!" because fuck everyone thinks! Scream it out! Write it out and do something to show it! I will gladly share the struggles I am going through to show you guys that you are not alone at all! I know what it is like to fucking wake up each day and force yourself to get out of bed, get dressed, eat, drink, don't worry......I do.

YOU be shocked. I know I haven't written in so long, and I am sorry, but I have just struggled and dealt with so much mental shit that I lost track of myself. But I am working on fixing myself and understanding where I come from and how to become a better person. I will share stories if I have to, guys. I will share my email and ways to contact you if that helps. I promise you...Life sucks, and I promise I will help you guys out. Don't worry about feeling like you aren't alone anymore because I am willing to help and show you. Someone out there hears your screams of sorrow from your shadows. Swear I do...That is all I have to say for now but keep an eye out. I may share something soon....who knows.

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